The pursuit

I'm currently living a life I despise so I could live a life I desire.
How long do I have to go through this, I wonder.
Just trying to find some kind of inspiration to get through each day.
I just feel so trapped, I don't know how to get out.
More often than not, I find myself dreaming as a form of escape,
imagining myself in a fantasy world where I'm feeling that feeling that seems so unfamiliar to me now..
the feeling of genuine happiness. 
Even then, it's difficult.

I mean, when was the last time I've felt that?
I don't even remember.
I haven't been happy for so long...
the feeling has become so distant.


I have simply forgotten how to be happy.

Guardian Angel

I'm sorry.

I love you.

Today is a special day dedicated to you
but every day for you should be special.

You deserve that,

not someone like me.

Keep swimming, keep swimming

It'll just be another year anyway.
Only one year.
Another 'only one year' kind of year.

Another day,
another week,
another month...

Countless of hours,
minutes, seconds...

Full of bull, sheep and dogs.

Just another year,
Just get through it.